thought for the week

Family

The week of May 18th to May 25th

fam⋅i⋅ly
  /ˈfæməli, ˈfæmli/ Show Spelled Pronunciation [fam-uh-lee, fam-lee] Show IPA noun, plural -lies, adjective
–noun
1. parents and their children, considered as a group, whether dwelling together or not.

Those of you that know me, know that I had about a 12-14 year gap from when I had last seen my family. I guess I have this tendency to isolate myself. When my mom moved out of Washington and my oldest sister and niece, it broke my heart. I felt like I was all alone. I was 22 at the time. I had some issues about my families past. Issues about how I felt about myself. I was angry. I pretty much cut myself off. It was never a plan. It was what happened. Several years later I got into Meth. That certainly didn’t help the concept of seeing my family. It hurt not seeing or talking to anyone. I avoided the pain of saying goodbye. I avoided them seeing me for what I had become. It was a goal of mine to redevelop the relationship I have with my family. I realized that I had not been fair. At all. There was nothing good about the separation. I had some valid issues, but I don’t agree with how I handled it at all. I regret the time I lost. The fact I met my sisters kids so many years after they were born. How wrong was that?! I cannot change the mistake I made. A part of me hates myself for all of it. Even now after reconnecting with my family, being 2 years now… I still fail to keep in good touch. I don’t know why I am like that. I don’t mean to be. It will have to be something I really work on. Maybe even write reminders. I know that sounds stupid, but I don’t want it to continue. I love my family very much. Every single person is an awesome person that I want to know. I want them to know me. With Barb having cancer, it really has put this in perspective. It is so IMPORTANT to remember your family. Even if it a call to say hi, a birthday card, or Christmas card. It all means so very much. The little things, the I love yous, the I miss yous matter so much. I don’t want to waste more time. I have lost way t0o much already.

Think about it before you speak about it.

The week of Dec 15th to Dec 21st

When in doubt, take a step back.  Sometimes when you have doubt in something or someone.  You really need to try and think where is this doubt coming from.  Is this something that is an affect of some situation?  Is this a projection of your own feelings or insecurities?  Be careful when it comes to expressing your doubt.  It can severely hurt other people or set a precurser to a situation that is not positive.  Stop.  Breath.  Focus.  Think about it before you speak about it.

Life is a dream waiting to happen.

The week of Feb 1st to Feb 8th

Life is full of opportunities, if we open our eyes to see them, open our ears and listen,  and open our heart to embrace them.  Next is action.  Whatever we can do to make efforts to fulfill our dreams.  I think the efforts will make a difference.  Sometimes the path you take towards your dream – the experience you achieve – may be rewarding on its own.  It is the flesh and blood of your dreams.

You decide how your day is going to go.

The week of Feb 9th to Feb 15th

No matter what happens, you truly decide how your day is going to go. You can either allow it to stress you out, feel depressed or whatever negative emotion. You can try to make the most of your day. Be grateful for life. Realize the opportunity in all things. Whether it is a lesson you learn or new experience you have. There are always going to obstacles and issues. How we handle them defines our day and ourselves. Find a way to take the situation that may be unpleasant and make something positive out of it.